Everyone’s Story welcomes about-to-be debut author Kelly Goshorn. It’s always a pure joy to cheer along another author and I’m glad you’re joining us this week to encourage Kelly as she tries to encourage you. Kelly’s novel, A Love Restored, will be out this year and Kelly shares with you the angst behind writing this novel. Also check out Kelly’s sweet Giveaway of an Amazon Gift card–one can never have enough books (or whatever you’d like), right?! Kelly and I look forward to chatting with you.
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Becoming Gideon by Kelly Goshorn
Happily married for nineteen years, I had three healthy, nearly grown children and a successful in-home childcare business, but something was missing. I began to pray earnestly for God to give me a new direction, a new passion for my life.
The answer came three years later, when he called me to write. The task was daunting. Me? Write a book? God, you must be joking.
The journey that lay ahead would not only prove to be challenging, it would require me to face my biggest personal and spiritual obstacle—the fear of failure. Over the next few years, I would be repeatedly plagued with crippling self-doubt and the fear of rejection. In true God fashion, he led me where I needed to be, not necessarily where I wanted to be.
I imagine Gideon must have been feeling the same thing when God chose him to lead his people against the Midianites. Small and of no consequence, The Bible tells us in Judges 6:15 that Gideon was the least in his tribe and his tribe was the least in all of Israel.
In today’s competitive world of publication, Gideon would be a nobody. He would have no social media platform, no unique voice and no agent. Like Gideon, I was completely unqualified for the task God set before me. I didn’t know the first thing about plotting a story, character arc or deep point of view. In fact, up until now, I’d considered myself a hopelessly uncreative person. How many times I cried over my keyboard, “God this must be a mistake, I can’t do this.”
Like me, Gideon tried to convince God he’d gotten it all wrong. Gideon pointed out his low position in his tribe and that he wasn’t much of a warrior. He reminded God of the strength of his enemy. The Bible tells us that the Midianites swarmed over Israel like locusts, devouring their crops and feasting on their livestock. So afraid was Israel, they sheltered in the clefts of the rocks rather than confront their oppressors. When Gideon finally stepped into the role of warrior that God had called him to, confident God had his back, Israel defeated her enemies.
Would God do the same for me? I didn’t have the pre-requisite skill set for the challenge he called me to. What if I mastered the craft, stepped out in faith, and there was no contract? What would that mean for my writing? For my faith?
But what if God did come through? After all, it was his crazy idea for me to write this book. I remembered something our Christian Education Director used to tell me, “where the Lord leads, the Lord provides.” Conviction set in. I had to pour out my heart and confess to God that I believed He would meet others needs but not necessarily my own. I repented for believing that the finishing work of the cross wasn’t enough. That I didn’t trust He was faithful to do what He said He would do—for me.
The result has been liberating. What I discovered is that God sees not only who we are, but who we can be when we place our trust in Him. He calls us to tackle our biggest obstacles so that we can rest in total dependence on Him. In fact, His specialty is using ordinary people to do extraordinary things. People like Gideon.
People like me.
I realize that writing a novel is not the same as conquering a might foe with only 300 men, but to embrace the path God was leading me on, no longer constrained by the fear of failure or what others might think of me if I failed, is every bit as extraordinary.
Truthfully, I still struggle with self-doubt often wondering if the words on the page are good enough. But it no longer cripples me. It no longer keeps me from pursing the calling I’d prayed for and received. I will be obedient to what God has called me to do—to write. I will rejoice in this new passion he has given me.
I will trust my God to come through for me and raise me up a Gideon!
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Kelly weaves her affinity for history and her passion for God into uplifting stories of love, faith and family set in nineteenth century America. Her debut novel, A Love Restored, is under contract with Pelican Book Group tentatively scheduled to release later this year. Kelly has been enjoying her own happily-ever- after with her husband and best friend, Mike, for 26 years. When she is not writing, Kelly enjoys spending time with her young adult children, scrapbooking with friends, board gaming with her husband, and spoiling her Welsh corgi, Levi.
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